When Moses came down from Mount Sinai with the two tablets of the covenant law in his hands, he was not aware that his face was radiant because he had spoken with the Lord. When Aaron and all the Israelites saw Moses, his face was radiant, and they were afraid to come near him. But Moses called to them; so Aaron and all the leaders of the community came back to him, and he spoke to them. Afterward all the Israelites came near him, and he gave them all the commands the Lord had given him on Mount Sinai.
When Moses finished speaking to them, he put a veil over his face. But whenever he entered the Lord’s presence to speak with him, he removed the veil until he came out. And when he came out and told the Israelites what he had been commanded, they saw that his face was radiant. Then Moses would put the veil back over his face until he went in to speak with the Lord.
~Exodus 34: 29-35
The past 2 months have been a very busy time for me. In mid-February, we moved from a home we had been in for 8 years to our present home. It was only a town away, but this particular move threw me off. More children, more stuff, I’m older, and oh yeah, I got the worst sinus infection ever. (Mind you, I never get sick.)
Before that, I had been keeping a pretty consistent quiet time in the morning; praying, meditating, and reading scripture. But when life upended itself, my quiet time took a back burner and I was definitely living on yesterday’s manna.
I clearly suffered because of that: I was crabby, snippy, feeling very overwhelmed, and my perspective on life was extremely skewed. All very normal things when your life circumstances become challenging, but when you are not under the power of the Holy Spirit, and daily in His word and in communion with Him; then these heart attitudes come out more than you would like.
Thankfully, a week and a half after I moved, I got to go to the Mom Heart conference in Raleigh, North Carolina. It couldn’t have been more perfect timing. Maybe not perfect timing for my husband, (thanks, honey!) leaving him with a very disarrayed home and a sad and emotional 12 year old mourning the death of her beloved cat (did I say our cat of 12 years died during the move, too?!), but perfect timing for me. I was happy to escape the chaos to be honest!
Once I arrived in North Carolina, I could feel the stress melt from me. I was able to check in early to my hotel room, and I just spent some time by myself in the Word, renewing my mind with scripture, going over all my worries and stressors with the Lord, and letting Him gently replace those worries with scripture to comfort me and to guide me.
This experience was a clear picture of what I would learn that weekend at Mom Heart. Over and over, I kept hearing the phrase: “A student will become like his teacher”. To me, this means that most often, in my mothering, that most of what I teach is “caught” more than “taught”. Parenting…mothering….is most often, all about me.
One thing Sally shared with us was that she always wanted her children to wake up and find her on the couch, reading her Bible. What a beautiful picture of faithfulness this communicates to our children, without us having to say a word! And the benefits of this stretch beyond anything we could ever say or teach them! Not only for them, but for us!
Just like Moses’ face was radiant when he came down from Mount Sinai, our faces can reflect the time spent reading the Bible, and spending time with Jesus. It is one of the most powerful parts of parenting. Having time away with Jesus—like Moses on the mountain—gives us the face of God for ourselves to handle the stressors of life, and shows the face of God to our children. Mothering truly is “all about me”.
Image: “Mother Praying”