Water for the Weary Soul ~ Meditating on God’s Word

Cottonwood III by Georgia O’Keeffe

Cottonwood III by Georgia O’Keeffe

Is it just me, or can motherhood at times feel like a desert—all of life sucked dry, perhaps for many reasons, but most seemingly because of the constant pouring out that we do for our families? The perpetual needs and demands can leave us mamas feeling so depleted inside.
One means the Bible suggests for avoiding burn-out is meditating on scripture. To some of us, the word meditation makes us think of some esoteric new-age practice, but meditation is actually a Biblical concept—and has been practiced in both Christian and Jewish traditions. Unlike Eastern meditation where the goal is detachment and emptying the mind, our goal in meditation as Christians is attachment and communion with God. Thomas Merton said “True contemplation is not a psychological trick but a theological grace.” Contemplating God’s Word, communing with Him, is grace and is what brings true refreshment to the weary soul.

Psalm 1:1-3 says
“Blessed is the one …
whose delight is in the law of the Lord,
and who meditates on his law day and night.
That person is like a tree
planted by streams of water,
which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither—
whatever they do prospers.”

So what does it mean to meditate on God’s word? [Read more...]

Our Children Are Always Listening…

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I found this note the other day on my desk. It said:

Dear Mommy,

God loves you sososososososo much and I do to. I love you more than the world and I love how God made you.

Love,

Pagie

PS: I wrote a song for you:

So come along and play with me and you will see we will be together forever.

God taught me an important lesson through this sweet little note from my oldest daughter who is 7.

The lesson is: Our children do listen to our words. I have whispered those very words into Paige’s ears for years. As a little girl when I was rocking her to sleep, she heard me tell her how much she was loved…by God, her dad, grandparents and especially me…her mommy. As we would snuggle on the couch in the evening and read a book together, I would kiss the top of her head and tell her I loved her more than anything else in the world. As I helped her get her clothes on in the morning I would tell her how I loved how God made her…..every little thing about her. The way her eyebrows raise when she thinks something is funny. Her adorable little freckles across her nose and cheeks. The caring heart she has for her younger sisters.

The funny thing is, when I tell her these truths……she acts like she doesn’t like it. She squirms on the couch, doesn’t like getting kisses and tells me all the time how I’ve already told her for the 100th time that day how much I love her. She acts like she doesn’t like it…..but she really does. Those words seep into her heart and as she is maturing, she is now able to express those very same words back to me.

Lesson learned: Never stop telling your children how important they are to you, how unique and special God made them….and how much they are loved. Even if they act like they don’t like hearing it…..do it anyway!

Let me be honest with you….I am by no means a perfect mom. I pray daily God will work through me and in many cases in spite of me. I am flawed. I am sinful. Many times throughout the day my patience and will power are tested. But as my children, who are 7, 5 and almost 2, are growing I’m learning to lean into Jesus even more as I parent these 3 little girls. When I’ve lost my patience or haven’t controlled my tongue and spoke harshly to one of my girls, I try and model repentance and grace.

It’s important our children see us live our faith out…..flaws and all. We are sinful and we will make mistakes…even if we love Jesus with all our hearts. But there is beauty in our mistakes because birthed in that mistake is the opportunity to teach them how to respond to their own mistakes and how to seek a merciful and loving God.

Yes, our children are always listening and watching. The best thing we can do is live our faith out right in front of them and show them they don’t have to be perfect to be perfectly loved by God.

We are all sinners and have fallen short of the glory of God….we all need Jesus.

But take heart my sweet sister….your loving words are just the “water” your children need to grow a garden of love in their hearts.

I know parenting during the young years is hard and exhausting. It seems the house can never stay clean, the kids are always hungry or needing a diaper change….but be encouraged, you are touching eternity by investing your life into those little lives.

 

Much love,

Angela

The Beautiful Results of Fasting

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I am an inexperienced faster, but I believe our family is walking through the blessings of obedience from a recent fast.

When my oldest daughter, sitting across from me at the dining table, questioned what I would be fasting from since our pastor had called a month long fast in April, I was caught off guard.  It’s not the first time my older daughters have surpassed my best spiritual intentions. As a single mom I am often tired, overwhelmed, and in survival mode even if I am embracing joy. Yet, because of my circumstances, it was easy to “excuse” the call to fast.  It was too challenging to add on one more thing to a full list already. Yet, what did that unbelief say about my view of God to my daughter. So I answered with what I intended to fast from. I truly had given it some thought…just not much. [Read more...]

Sometimes Step By Weary Step …

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“My dreams before motherhood were full of cuddling my darling babies, rocking them and nurturing them in our first years together.

I hadn’t counted on the weariness of years of being pregnant and nursing, of giving birth and having miscarriages. I didn’t have a realistic understanding of the many phases of motherhood that would demand all my strength–asthma, ear infections, tantrums, messes and fusses, thousands of mounds of dirty dishes and clothes, and countless days to fill with meaningful occupation, not to mention the training, correcting, and instruction of my children in righteousness.

I had no idea how often loneliness would literally overwhelm me as I strove to learn and be all that I needed to be for my family without the help of mentors or support systems in my life as we moved 16 times.

Yet many times, when I was tempted to quit taking so much time from my own life to give to my kids, when I felt like I simply couldn’t go on, I would creep away into my quiet corner to spend even a few minutes with the Lord. Without fail, He would use those stolen moments to show me how important my role was in the spiritual life and heritage of my children.

In those times, I glimpsed the goal of righteousness I was working toward and realized that I must reach it step-by-weary-step.”

~Sally Clarkson, The Mom Walk

And now, to see the fire of righteousness bubbling over in the conversations, the choices, the commitment of my adult children, I know that the choice to keep going in the direction of His ideals has made all the difference.

Those who wait for the Lord, who patiently follow after Him, will indeed gain new strength, they will run and not become weary, they will walk and not faint. And their work and their reward will be sure.

May you have a blessed and graceful weekend; and may you feel the Lord walking alongside you,  even step by weary step.

 

Inspired Mothering

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I have always hungered for knowledge. You can usually find me reading something, whether it is a book, a magazine, blogs, or the back of a cereal box. I love to learn and have always loved to learn. Every since I can remember I have done my own research on subjects I wanted to understand better.

This did not change all that much when I had my first baby. I had no idea what to do with this red, screaming, and wriggly wee one that would not nurse well or sleep well. In desperation, I ordered all kinds of baby-care books from Dr. Sears to the Ezzos.* I found I did not fit in either camp: I tried to schedule my baby but that didn’t feel right. I tried to babywear and co-sleep and that didn’t feel right. I needed someone to tell me what to do. One day, after three months of a colicky baby and no sleep, I cried out to God: “please help me know what to do for my baby!” [Read more...]

Guilty No More!


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Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God.  He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant—not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.

II Corinthians 3:5-6

The dark shadows played upon the window of my bedroom, as the sun set over the mountains. The darkness seemed to match my mood. I remember this day clearly because I felt trapped and wondered if I would truly make it through the rest of the years of my children being at home.

One more move, teens in the house and a little girl who wanted to play with her beany babies, and a hormonal middle-aged mom made for catastrophe.

There were many such days through the journey of motherhood and the fingers pointed at my heart accused me of the inadequacies and failures in my life.

Today, I am writing all the sweet mamas who are in this place and feel alone—as though they are alone in their feelings of guilt.

Do you ever hate reading articles where the writer always seems positive and Pollyannish? (Why? Because it doesn’t seem to match the reality of your own life and experience and it feels saccharine and unreal?)

Do you feel guilty for yelling and becoming angry at your children too often?

Are you regularly immature in front of your children? In marriage, do you become easily frustrated and can’t resist fighting with your spouse that you know you should love?

Do you ever wonder if there is any turning back? If you have been such a failure that it will be impossible to redeem your situation or child or marriage?

Does sadness fill your soul because of a prodigal or rebellious, angry child and you think it was all your fault? [Read more...]